Today, or, tonight, it will be 16 days since I've last pulled. It's amazing what you can make your mind think. Lately, I've been wearing clip in extensions.
Without the extensions, my hair looks like this:

That's only if I leave it straightened, but I usually scrunch my hair a bit, and put the clip-ins whenever I feel like using the whole 'kesha' look, then my hair looks like this:

My goal with these extensions, by the end of this summer, my hair WILL look like this. That is what I keep telling myself. But whatever ya'll do, if ya'll wanna get the extensions, please... PLEASE, don't get the sew-in, or glue-in. Get the clip-in, because every night, you can take them out and see your progress without them in. And plus, the sow-ins hurt. Which makes you wanna pull the hair near the braid. I'm just worried I'm gonna depend on the clip-ins too much. When I got the sow-in and glue-in (when my hair had blad patches) i relyed completely on the extensions, which caused me to get the glue-ins. But please don't risk losing most of your hair.

If ya'll need to contact me, or have any questions, here's my e-mail. (:

Sarah_kathryn15@yahoo.com

 xoxo, Sarahh.

Alright guys,

I'm working on my 9th day being pull-free. I have not gone this long in two years so this is real success. What has taught me and is keeping me from pulling was the whole TLC episode on Trich. Anyone who watched that episode probably first thought of me. I used to pick at my hair during class. Play with the hair after pulling it out, and chewing the follicle off. That can be very distracting to people in class if you do that constantly. And, I don't want people to think, "Oh, gross! Sarah does that?! That's disgusting!" And I don't want to be judged and seen like that. But this is going to be a hard process to go through but having beautiful, gorgeous hair will definitely be worth it. And I'm excited to be able to write my senior essay over Trich, and I'm not too nervous about writing it. Oh, and here's another thing.. Not only am I living with Trich, I'm also living with TMJ (Temporomandibular Joint disorder) which I cannot even pronounce. But it's a some sort of jaw problem.. It can cause clicking, popping, or grating sound when opening or closing the mouth. That's my main issue. My jaw is always locking up and I can't even talk without my jaw popping out of place.

And if ya'll can give me some pointers on how to edit the background and stuff on my profile, I'd be glad to get some advice. (:

xoxo, Sarahh

My Senior Essay on Trich..And other stuff;

     I have decided a few days ago that I was wanting to write my big senior essay on Trich. I asked my mom if it would be a good idea and she said that she thinks it is.. But one major issue: when the teacher asks us for our topic, she has us write it down on a sheet with everyone elses' topic on there.. I don't want other people to see the word "Trichtillomania" and wonder what it means. So I emailed the teacher and asked her if it was okay if I just put down "OCD" for my topic. I already told her that the topic was gonna be narrowed down to Trich. And thankfully, she said it was okay. And I'm excited to write this essay because I already have dont so much research into it, and I know alot about the topic, I don't think it would be that bad of an essay. The essay only has to be about 3-5 pages, so I'm all set.
     I have been pull-free for two days now. I'm getting there. I had a fun, productive day that didn't give me the time to just sit around and pull. I went out of town with my dad and when I got back, I was invited to go play pool with a few friends. Then, we went to IHOP, hung around for a while, and my friend and I left to see "Black Swan". Terrible movie, I reccomend none of you to see it. But all together, I had an awesome day.
Again, I hope all is well. 

xoxo, Sarahh.

The life of a Trich teen;

Alright, let's cut to the chase.
     My name is Sarah and I have had Trichotillomania since I was around the age of 13 or 14. I am now 18. You do the math. ;P My life has been very tough all through Junior High and High School. I have gone through therapy which did not work. It was the whole technical, "How do you feel about that?" sort of thing. I thought that the whole thought of seeing a therapist was stupid. I haven't seen one in, maybe, 3 years. I've also seen a hypnotherapist which also did not work. I've tried antidepressants, Aderal.. Nothing has worked. What I believe is a cure for this disorder is having faith in yourself. I know, I know.. That's not something I would want to find out either. 
      This IS controllable.. This is just something we need to overpower ourself instead of finding something doing all the work for us. I have been pull-free for a day, so far. I know, it's not all that great right now, but I feel like I can do this. I have gone pull-free for a month before.. Which was 3 years ago.. I just told myself to stop, and I did. I went to a TLC center last year somewhere in Texas, and seeing all of the people with Trich felt like a dream. Sometimes, I feel like I am still alone with this disorder. But I met a girl, which I cannot remember her name, had Trich since she was 13, and she's now in her 30's. But she had gone pull-free for 3 years straight. That gives me faith that I can fight this. But I met the lady who put the whole clinic thing together.. It was heartbreaking when I saw her. She had no hair on the top of her head, and had a little bit of hair on the back of her head. My mother and I chatted with her for a while and my mother asked her what are some ways she tries not to pull, and the lady said, "I do not try anything anymore. I believe that there is no cure. Trich is a-part of me and I cannot stop it." That broke my heart, but I am not going to give up like she did. And I hope none of you do, either.
There are two women who inspired me to blog about my Trich life.
http://atrichylife.blogspot.com
http://hubpages.com/hub/TTM-Short-for-Trichotillomania-Your-year-to-stop-pulling
I hope all is well, and if you have any question, just ask away. (:

xoxo, Sarahh.